Day 30: What is the driving force in my life?
The driving force in my life is my family.
I work hard because I never want to let them down. I keep from stepping off of the ledge because I never want them to have to live without me. I stay focused because I never want to steer them wrong. I accomplish any goal that I set my mind to because I want to continue to inspire them. I try to be strong because I never want them to think of me as weak.
Everyone's driving force is different, but for a very long time, they have been the driving force behind a lot of the things that I do in my life. Honestly, I am glad to have them as a driving force for me because I find that I challenge myself because of them. I find that I am becoming a better person because of them. I am finding out a lot of stuff about myself because of them and I am truly grateful for it.
By becoming a better person because of them, I am becoming a better person for myself and sometimes, that's all that really matters at the end of this life.
Wednesday, October 31, 2018
Tuesday, October 30, 2018
30 Days of Blogging: Day 29
Day 29: Who is someone that I admire?
The person that I admire is my mom.
Anyone that has had the pleasure of meeting my mother can understand why she is someone that I would admire. She a strong, kind, caring, nurturing, and giving individual just to name some of her qualities. She is also beautiful inside and out.
Granted, she can be crass and very blunt, those qualities only add to why she is admirable to me. She makes sure that anyone that knows her, knows exactly where they stand with her. Because she is so straightforward, you can always expect to be told the truth when talking to her.
She loves unconditionally and never judges a person off of something a that she heard about them; she also allows people second chances even when the world knows that they don't deserve them.
Growing up, I wanted to be like her because that was the kind of role model she was to me. If there was ever a person that a child should want to grow up to be like, she should be that person.
I literally could go on and on about my mom and how much I admire her, but I won't; she's just an amazing individual to know.
The person that I admire is my mom.
Anyone that has had the pleasure of meeting my mother can understand why she is someone that I would admire. She a strong, kind, caring, nurturing, and giving individual just to name some of her qualities. She is also beautiful inside and out.
Granted, she can be crass and very blunt, those qualities only add to why she is admirable to me. She makes sure that anyone that knows her, knows exactly where they stand with her. Because she is so straightforward, you can always expect to be told the truth when talking to her.
She loves unconditionally and never judges a person off of something a that she heard about them; she also allows people second chances even when the world knows that they don't deserve them.
Growing up, I wanted to be like her because that was the kind of role model she was to me. If there was ever a person that a child should want to grow up to be like, she should be that person.
I literally could go on and on about my mom and how much I admire her, but I won't; she's just an amazing individual to know.
Monday, October 29, 2018
30 Days of Blogging: Day 28
Day 28: Name one talent I wish I had and why?
The one talent that I wish I had is the ability to draw.
I find visual art to be so intriguing. So expressive. It speaks words without saying anything at all. To be able to see something in your mind then draw it on whatever you are drawing on and it come out exactly as you visualized it, is beyond amazing to me.
In recent years, I find myself looking up artists on Instagram. I never realized before recently how many talented artists there are out there in the world. Ones that seemingly go unnoticed, if you will. I, myself, personally know three extremely talented artists and I feel like the world needs to experience their art they way that I have had the pleasure of experiencing it. I say experience because looking at true are isn't simply something that you do, it is something that you experience. It causes the mind to think while the eyes are hypnotized in the moment.
It's hard to put into words for me, but I get the same feeling with looking at art that I get when reading a well written poem. It's just feels so good, and yet, that overwhelming for me.
Anyway, if you are someone that is into art, be sure to check out my artistic friends: TJSGrimm, Larry Wade, Nate Masternak!
The one talent that I wish I had is the ability to draw.
I find visual art to be so intriguing. So expressive. It speaks words without saying anything at all. To be able to see something in your mind then draw it on whatever you are drawing on and it come out exactly as you visualized it, is beyond amazing to me.
In recent years, I find myself looking up artists on Instagram. I never realized before recently how many talented artists there are out there in the world. Ones that seemingly go unnoticed, if you will. I, myself, personally know three extremely talented artists and I feel like the world needs to experience their art they way that I have had the pleasure of experiencing it. I say experience because looking at true are isn't simply something that you do, it is something that you experience. It causes the mind to think while the eyes are hypnotized in the moment.
It's hard to put into words for me, but I get the same feeling with looking at art that I get when reading a well written poem. It's just feels so good, and yet, that overwhelming for me.
Anyway, if you are someone that is into art, be sure to check out my artistic friends: TJSGrimm, Larry Wade, Nate Masternak!
Sunday, October 28, 2018
30 Days of Blogging: Day 27
Day 27: What is my guilty pleasure?
Soooo, this may come off as weird or even shocking, but my guilty pleasure is reading erotica. It could be an erotic poem or an erotic novel, but either way, it gives me great pleasure to read them.
There was a period in my life, that lasted for months, where I read nothing but erotic novels. If it didn't have sex laced within the story, I wouldn't read it. I don't even know how I found the books that I did, but I did. Understand, they weren't just dirty books, they had really good story lines; they just happened to have a lot of sex within the story.
The past year, I've been so focused on other that I haven't had the urge, or desire, to read an erotic novel. I did go to an erotic poetry ready once some months back and almost had to change my clothes afterward because it was just that hot! Decided then that I probably wasn't ready to attend another one of those for awhile, lol.
I am ready for my mind to finally be clear of the issues that have plagued it because if I recall accurately, there are a few books waiting for my attention. 😉
Soooo, this may come off as weird or even shocking, but my guilty pleasure is reading erotica. It could be an erotic poem or an erotic novel, but either way, it gives me great pleasure to read them.
There was a period in my life, that lasted for months, where I read nothing but erotic novels. If it didn't have sex laced within the story, I wouldn't read it. I don't even know how I found the books that I did, but I did. Understand, they weren't just dirty books, they had really good story lines; they just happened to have a lot of sex within the story.
The past year, I've been so focused on other that I haven't had the urge, or desire, to read an erotic novel. I did go to an erotic poetry ready once some months back and almost had to change my clothes afterward because it was just that hot! Decided then that I probably wasn't ready to attend another one of those for awhile, lol.
I am ready for my mind to finally be clear of the issues that have plagued it because if I recall accurately, there are a few books waiting for my attention. 😉
Saturday, October 27, 2018
20 Days of Blogging: Day 26
Day 26: What are some things that I would like to say "yes" to but I don't?
Doing things for myself more often. As a wife and parent, I usually skip on the things for myself to make sure that my husband and kids are taken care of. And even when I do decide to do things for myself, for some reason, I feel like I'm being selfish. I am grateful that my husband and kids always insist that I do something for myself or they will try to do things for me, so there is that. But if it's left up to me to do something for myself, it generally takes a lot of mental back and forth before I do.
Doing things for myself more often. As a wife and parent, I usually skip on the things for myself to make sure that my husband and kids are taken care of. And even when I do decide to do things for myself, for some reason, I feel like I'm being selfish. I am grateful that my husband and kids always insist that I do something for myself or they will try to do things for me, so there is that. But if it's left up to me to do something for myself, it generally takes a lot of mental back and forth before I do.
Friday, October 26, 2018
30 Days of Blogging: Day 25
Day 25: What is something that I would like to say "no" to but I don't?
It would have to be doing stuff for other people. My adult life has consisted of me always doing for others. Making sure everyone else was okay before I looked out for myself. It gets stressful sometimes because I feel like people take advantage of the fact that I don't say no. And even when I realize that I am getting taken advantage of, it takes me forever to put my foot down! I don't get it. Maybe, I will make "no" my new favorite word for 2019...
It would have to be doing stuff for other people. My adult life has consisted of me always doing for others. Making sure everyone else was okay before I looked out for myself. It gets stressful sometimes because I feel like people take advantage of the fact that I don't say no. And even when I realize that I am getting taken advantage of, it takes me forever to put my foot down! I don't get it. Maybe, I will make "no" my new favorite word for 2019...
Thursday, October 25, 2018
30 Days of Blogging: Day 24
Day 24: What is something I regret?
Hehe. I seriously didn't believe in having regrets until a couple of years ago, but to answer the question, I regret a certain friendship.
Without getting into too much detail, because it will instantly piss me off all over again, I had a friend that I considered a best friend. She had some secrets that she was keeping from her husband and she would confide in me about them. Because I have an insanely sick loyalty to people, when her husband confronted me about some of things that she was doing, I wouldn't say anything. At all. As much as it pained me to "lie" to him, at the end of the day, my loyalty was to his wife. Plus, I felt like that was their marriage and I had no business involved in it.
Even in the end, when I found out how she talked about me behind my back, I still didn't say anything to her husband. Trust me, I truly wanted to. Especially, when I found out that he had lost all respect for me because he felt like I was lying (which is no surprise because I completely suck at lying, so I try not to). So much so that he "banned" me from coming back to his house. It hurt, believe me, it did. Rightfully so, because I adored their kids and at times, I found myself missing the friendship. Hell, honestly, he was more of a friend to me than she ever was.
I guess it makes sense though, that I would be the one put at a distance. I mean, that's what people always do when they're in a miserable situation and refuse to leave the person that is making them miserable; they cut off ties to those on the outside. Find a way to blame others so that they don't have to lay blame where it rightfully belongs.
I used to be mad about that stuff, but I'm not anymore. I'm learning that misery loves company and if I am the one getting cut off then I need to take that as a blessing because at least I'm not the one having to be stuck in the miserable situation.
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