And yet so little at the same time...
There are so many positive things going on in my life right now, that I am not in the least bit surprised that there is an undercurrent of negativity or even an undercurrent of things trying to bring me out of my "high". Even worse, it's the negative, aggravating things that once again drive me to want to write! I get tired of finding more inspiration to write when angry, upset, or aggravated; that is something that bugs me more than it should...
The majority of the poems that I have ever written, were written when something was bothing so much that I had to write about it in order to avoid exploding. Some people call my writing dark, others call it relatable(?). I don't know, but sometimes it would be nice to have more positive poems than negative ones. Then again, it was on negative emotions that I began writing; so I guess it only makes sense that it's the negative that drives my pen...
(Sigh)... So many words are said when not a word is uttered...
Friday, March 16, 2012
Wednesday, February 15, 2012
Friends Are Like Blues In A Sea Full Of Pinks
Why do you ask? Because they are. True friends are rare and they are very hard to come by. I, myself, don't have many friends so my true friends are even fewer. They might be the only friends that I really do have to be honest. Crazy part about it is that we're all not centralized in one location together; I kind of like to believe that my friendships with my true friends are global sometimes; yeah, global.
The friends that I do have are very important to me. They have a serious impact on my outlook and my life. They also keep me very humble. They uplift me when I am down, they encourage me when I need it, they protect me when I'm in danger, and they promote me without ever being asked to. My accomplishments are theirs, just like theirs are mine. There are many other things that they do, but those are just a few examples.
Lately, one of my best friends has been promoting me in her blog; it's in the beginning stages, but it's very neat and very creative. She also went and purchased EVERY published work that I have out there! I think that's pretty amazing when you sit down and think about it. It seriously was enough to make me cry, but it definitely kept a smile on my face, that's for sure. I'm thankfully blessed to have people like her in my life and in my corner because sometimes that's what a person needs to push forward with their dreams; as much as I dream, I know I definitely need that encouragement.
Anyway, here is a link to her new blog: http://amberrocksawesome.wordpress.com
Check it out when you can and if you like it, join and leaves comments. I know she would love to have you :')
The friends that I do have are very important to me. They have a serious impact on my outlook and my life. They also keep me very humble. They uplift me when I am down, they encourage me when I need it, they protect me when I'm in danger, and they promote me without ever being asked to. My accomplishments are theirs, just like theirs are mine. There are many other things that they do, but those are just a few examples.
Lately, one of my best friends has been promoting me in her blog; it's in the beginning stages, but it's very neat and very creative. She also went and purchased EVERY published work that I have out there! I think that's pretty amazing when you sit down and think about it. It seriously was enough to make me cry, but it definitely kept a smile on my face, that's for sure. I'm thankfully blessed to have people like her in my life and in my corner because sometimes that's what a person needs to push forward with their dreams; as much as I dream, I know I definitely need that encouragement.
Anyway, here is a link to her new blog: http://amberrocksawesome.wordpress.com
Check it out when you can and if you like it, join and leaves comments. I know she would love to have you :')
Wednesday, January 25, 2012
I Have A Foe Named Fear
(Sigh)
I am a writer. I am more than a writer, I am an author. I am an author that has published 3 books. Two poetry books and a children's picture book. I am currently working on a picture poetry book, a regular poetry book, and four novels. Yes, I am an author.
I am an author who, as much as I would love it, am deathly afraid of the limelight. I don't like the attention or the acknowledgement that my writing brings. It probably doesn't help that my social skills come off as if I am a child who was told continuously NOT to speak to strangers; so in a way, I don't, or try not to anyway.
My social etiquette is kind of lacking. Partly because I am very humble about my talent and I feel like to talk about it, would be to brag about it. And partly because I don't like to discuss my emotions and A LOT of my poetry is based on my emotions. I'm a very private person and I instantly put up walls when it seems as if my private life is being invaded. Crazy thing is, I knew that was going to happen when I set out to publish my first book.
Fear can be a crippling foe. It is crippling my ability to get out there and promote my work like I should or even like I want to. It is crippling my want to read at open mic events. It is crippling my behavior when a fan approaches me with questions or compliments. It is just all around crippling.
And quite frankly, I'm tired of being crippled.
I am a writer. I am more than a writer, I am an author. I am an author that has published 3 books. Two poetry books and a children's picture book. I am currently working on a picture poetry book, a regular poetry book, and four novels. Yes, I am an author.
I am an author who, as much as I would love it, am deathly afraid of the limelight. I don't like the attention or the acknowledgement that my writing brings. It probably doesn't help that my social skills come off as if I am a child who was told continuously NOT to speak to strangers; so in a way, I don't, or try not to anyway.
My social etiquette is kind of lacking. Partly because I am very humble about my talent and I feel like to talk about it, would be to brag about it. And partly because I don't like to discuss my emotions and A LOT of my poetry is based on my emotions. I'm a very private person and I instantly put up walls when it seems as if my private life is being invaded. Crazy thing is, I knew that was going to happen when I set out to publish my first book.
Fear can be a crippling foe. It is crippling my ability to get out there and promote my work like I should or even like I want to. It is crippling my want to read at open mic events. It is crippling my behavior when a fan approaches me with questions or compliments. It is just all around crippling.
And quite frankly, I'm tired of being crippled.
Sunday, January 1, 2012
Two Blogs
I haven't forgotten to blog, I have just been blogging more elsewhere. It makes it much easier when there is an app for your phone, really convenient actually. I'll bounce back in from time to time though, until then you can catch my continuous posts here --> www.poeticallyable.tumblr.com
Wednesday, October 19, 2011
Uncharted Waters
Lately my poetry has been taking me to places that I have never been before. But then again, that could be the result of my life experiences also taking me to places that I have never been before.
So much, and yet so little, has happened to me in the past five months that if I were to write about it, I would write forever. That isn't a bad thing either when I actually think about it. It's just that, I'm not ready for that side of me to be exposed just yet. The completely vulnerable and afraid side. The one where uncertainty reigns supreme and worry is my regular bedmate. The one where stess is worn like clothing and tears flow like a never ending river. No, I'm not ready for that side to show too much, just yet.
I have a feeling that my writing is going to take me on a journey; one that I so long to go on. One that I sometimes eat, sleep, and dream to go on and I cannot wait! The feedback for my work has been amazing and unexpected at the same time! It's absolutely exciting and I welcome it with open arms! Already, I've inspired two other people to write books of their own! I mean to know that I have actually been that kind of inspiration in a person's life is beyond what words can describe! I just know that I have been absolutely blessed! As this path in my life continues on, I have prepared myself to expect the unexpected and to know that God will make even the most impossible dreams, possible...
So much, and yet so little, has happened to me in the past five months that if I were to write about it, I would write forever. That isn't a bad thing either when I actually think about it. It's just that, I'm not ready for that side of me to be exposed just yet. The completely vulnerable and afraid side. The one where uncertainty reigns supreme and worry is my regular bedmate. The one where stess is worn like clothing and tears flow like a never ending river. No, I'm not ready for that side to show too much, just yet.
I have a feeling that my writing is going to take me on a journey; one that I so long to go on. One that I sometimes eat, sleep, and dream to go on and I cannot wait! The feedback for my work has been amazing and unexpected at the same time! It's absolutely exciting and I welcome it with open arms! Already, I've inspired two other people to write books of their own! I mean to know that I have actually been that kind of inspiration in a person's life is beyond what words can describe! I just know that I have been absolutely blessed! As this path in my life continues on, I have prepared myself to expect the unexpected and to know that God will make even the most impossible dreams, possible...
Thursday, June 9, 2011
Dreams Taste Like Rainbows
Dreams taste like rainbows and rainbows taste like heaven... Totally random, I know... But I've been feeling that way lately...
On Tuesday morning, I published my SECOND POETRY BOOK..! AHHH!!! I am sooo excited about it, but with that excitement comes that nervousness that I get when the thought of someone reading my private thoughts and personal feelings comes to mind... I don't know how the book will be received and I would be lying if I said that I didn't care, because I do... I want people to understand me, relate to me, grow from me... I don't want them thinking that I was crazy or even full of it... Hehe, yeah...
It's pretty awesome though that this book had more guest authors than the first one... In the first one, I had 4 but in this one I had 12..! Their poems took my book from 80 pages to 134 pages, so I thought that that was pretty cool..! I am blessed to know each one of them personally and honored that they allowed me to showcase their work (For some AGAIN)..! Each one of them are truly talented writers..!
Since publishing the book, "A Deeper Me" by the way, I've felt a void in my soul... But that could be because the very thing I looonged to do for the last 5 years, is complete... It's a good thing I suppose; allows more room and time for something else to be done... I just don't know... Like I'm happy but I feel sort of blank about it... I want to say the reality has set in that I am a published author of multiple projects, but it's as if I haven't really grasped it yet... Definitely hadn't accepted the fact that I was a published author when I had ONE book, so how will I accept it now that I have THREE.?!
I thank God for everything though... He was my source strength... He gave me the ability to articulate my thoughts into words... Allowed my words to form the sentences that were the verses to my poems... Without God, I don't know if I would've been able to be the writer that I have become today...
On Tuesday morning, I published my SECOND POETRY BOOK..! AHHH!!! I am sooo excited about it, but with that excitement comes that nervousness that I get when the thought of someone reading my private thoughts and personal feelings comes to mind... I don't know how the book will be received and I would be lying if I said that I didn't care, because I do... I want people to understand me, relate to me, grow from me... I don't want them thinking that I was crazy or even full of it... Hehe, yeah...
It's pretty awesome though that this book had more guest authors than the first one... In the first one, I had 4 but in this one I had 12..! Their poems took my book from 80 pages to 134 pages, so I thought that that was pretty cool..! I am blessed to know each one of them personally and honored that they allowed me to showcase their work (For some AGAIN)..! Each one of them are truly talented writers..!
Since publishing the book, "A Deeper Me" by the way, I've felt a void in my soul... But that could be because the very thing I looonged to do for the last 5 years, is complete... It's a good thing I suppose; allows more room and time for something else to be done... I just don't know... Like I'm happy but I feel sort of blank about it... I want to say the reality has set in that I am a published author of multiple projects, but it's as if I haven't really grasped it yet... Definitely hadn't accepted the fact that I was a published author when I had ONE book, so how will I accept it now that I have THREE.?!
I thank God for everything though... He was my source strength... He gave me the ability to articulate my thoughts into words... Allowed my words to form the sentences that were the verses to my poems... Without God, I don't know if I would've been able to be the writer that I have become today...
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
Chocolate With That Snafu
The first week of March practically brought tears to my eyes. I accidentally busted my laptop screen and ALL of my updated poems were on it! Normally, I back up my work, but I didn't this time. Mainly because I was procrastinating. I guess that's what I get really, for being careless when I should've been being careful. So the book had to take a backseat until there was further notice.
In comes the further notice! I lucked out, more or less was blessed, that I had uploaded ALL of my files online to a website that I was going through for my second book! Again, I was practically brought to tears; tears of happiness of course! So I've been steadily working on my second book ever since. No it might not have the release date that I originally wanted, but there will be a release all the same. I'm hoping sometime in the fall or winter, but I might luck out and have it ready by the summer! Who knows. I do know, that I'm definitely praying about it.
Also, I recently published my FIRST Children's Book and A calendar! Because I couldn't fit my quotes onto my calendar AND have the format that I wanted, I decided to allow the pictures to be the inspiration. I also, just finished proofreading a friend's FIRST official book and it was REALLY GOOD..! I would definitely read "Red Sun" again..! Then next week, I am going to be a guest speaker at a banquet because of my first book. Kinda of like a motivational speaker of sorts and even thought I am extremely nervous, I am even more excited..!
Anyway, to keep it simple, I am truly blessed....
In comes the further notice! I lucked out, more or less was blessed, that I had uploaded ALL of my files online to a website that I was going through for my second book! Again, I was practically brought to tears; tears of happiness of course! So I've been steadily working on my second book ever since. No it might not have the release date that I originally wanted, but there will be a release all the same. I'm hoping sometime in the fall or winter, but I might luck out and have it ready by the summer! Who knows. I do know, that I'm definitely praying about it.
Also, I recently published my FIRST Children's Book and A calendar! Because I couldn't fit my quotes onto my calendar AND have the format that I wanted, I decided to allow the pictures to be the inspiration. I also, just finished proofreading a friend's FIRST official book and it was REALLY GOOD..! I would definitely read "Red Sun" again..! Then next week, I am going to be a guest speaker at a banquet because of my first book. Kinda of like a motivational speaker of sorts and even thought I am extremely nervous, I am even more excited..!
Anyway, to keep it simple, I am truly blessed....
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