On the eve of a new year...
If you have read any of my past NYE entries, you will know that I generally like to reflect on the past year; this time is not any different. Everything about this past year as been a true blessing. Honestly, to be able to see a new year ring in is a blessing in and of itself.
As I sit here, looking out of my bedroom window at the dreary weather while "Assassination Classroom" plays in the background, I ponder over the words to type here. I have so much to say, but so little at the same time. I find it rather interesting because as a writer, this year was the year that I struggled the most to articulate my thoughts. Honestly, looking back, writing was the only thing I struggled with.
For about six months or so, I did not write. At all. For whatever reason, I just simply could not. Each time I considered writing, my mind drew a blank. I could not write a poem nor could I work on the WIPs that required my attention. I would be lying if I said I knew why that was, however, I am still trying to figure it out so that it does not happen again next year.
As far as writing being the only thing I struggled with, it was. For the first time, in a long time, I had an amazing year. I am absolutely grateful for how my 40th year of life turned out; I could not have asked for a better introduction into my 40s. There were so many ups and an over abundance of smiles. Good vibes shared with some pretty awesome souls. There were also a couple of major milestones that were pretty positive as well, but above all else, I finally felt free...
I cannot explain to you exactly what that means, but I know how it feels. It feels like I no longer have to hold my breath or squeeze my eyes shut. I no longer feel like I am trapped or completely lost in my own life. It feels like I finally have my footing and a clearer view of who I am and what I stand for and for that, I am extremely grateful...
I have been trying to find the words to wrap this post up, but none are sufficient. 2024 truly was an amazing year for me and I pray that 2025 will be even better!
Happy New Year, My Luvs!